To truly know who it is that resides within one’s innermost regions, and what it is that makes someone who he is, he would need to be looking through God’s eyes. In my own blind-by-comparison opinion,
“I start to think there really is no cure for depression, that happiness is an ongoing battle, and I wonder if it isn't one I'll have to fight for as long as I live. I wonder if it's worth it.” This quote starts to define his battle. He starts to wonder if life is worth it, to try, because no matter how hard we try to accomplish something, we cannot ever make it with perfection. And that is the truth. There is no reason to live life because of anything in this world. The only thing that would make it worthwhile he does not feel connected to, he does not feel a part of. He feels like a man behind a mask. He feels like he has never really connected. True, there have been times where he has felt close to Him. But the majority of the time, he feels like God is up there and Peter is down here. And there is the sky and the stars and the space in between. It’s too easy to separate Him from what’s happening here, too easy to act as if He can’t see, can’t feel, doesn’t hear.