Wednesday, April 15, 2009

1000 hits and how hard it is to control emotions...

Thanks to a loyal following and some famous poems posted on the blog, 4 months and 10 days after I started this blog, it's had 1053 visitors. That's about 250 visitors a month. Unless my math skills have left me. Haha. Anyway, it's encouraging to know that people are reading. Thank you.

I realized today while doing grammar (ugh!) how hard it is to rein in feelings and emotions. I have a problem with this. My mouth talks when it doesn't like things. It complains about how there is no reason to do this, how I'm never going to use this ever again, and how stupid it is that I have to waste my time on this idiotic subject. All of that complaining doesn't do a minutiae of good. I still have to do it, and it just makes it harder for my mom to put up with me. I'm 18, and I should know better than to behave like a kid. So. It's not fun to do grammar, but I'm gonna try and button my lip and do it. This is not the only area, of course. There are WAY too many areas in my life where it's hard for me to stay on the right path.

In what areas is it hard for you to exercise self-control? What do you do to change, and what have you found helps you to win out over the "Mr. Hyde" inside of us all?


  1. Hmm. I need to exercise self control in order not to get angry and say something I'll regret...As James writes, "Be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger."

    I also have to exercise self control on the basketball court in order to squash inferior competition.

  2. peter,

    very nice post, peter. i like. good thoughts.

    i exercise self control in what and how much i eat, how i spend my money, and internet use, particularly facebook. i have tendencies to overindulge in all 3 of these. so, i have disciplined and put restrictions on myself.

    in regards to food--i actually made the transition from lacto-ovo vegetarianism to veganism last month. i'm not going to endorse it because i think everyone needs to take care of themselves the way they deem suitable, but i am lovin' it. :)

    in regards to money--i actually stopped carrying cash, debit, and credit cards on a daily basis so i won't impulsively buy something that just seemed good at the time. you can realllyyyy drain your checking account that way. i only carry money when i'm off to run an errand.

    in regards to facebook---i created a new facebook without a wall with the theory that less people would talk to me if i didn't have one. (excessive socializing is my biggest downfall online, as can be attested to the growing length of this post. lol.) so far, so good. i also go on "vacation days" where i'll challenge myself to go several days without checking it, which is getting easier.

    maybe these seem dumb to you, but (s)he who is faithful in the small will be faithful in the large.

    that is quite enough out of me for now.


    p/s i don't list myself as anonymous to be cheeky or anything. (obviously, or else i wouldn't put my name at the bottom.) my google account isn't working on here, and i'm too lazy (and busy) to figure out why. :)

  3. Ah, kid. Life is crazy sometimes. That's all. :)

  4. peter, dear, if you can correctly use the word "minutiae" (conjugated, at that!) in a post about grammar, i think you will eventually find that grammar isn't quite so idiotic as you think. ;)

    as for self-control ... well, i gave up chocolate, lattes and ice cream for lent. and actually, now that i can eat them again, i don't necessarily want them, so i think i might try an all-out kibosh on other areas where i tend to be lax in self-control, too.

    otherwise i just bite my tongue and swallow the words i'd really, really like to say, but that i know would be blunt and hurtful. and that's awfully hard sometimes.

  5. I have so much trouble keeping my mouth shut when things hurt, or when I don't feel great, or anything in that area. I complain too much. I just always share everything I'm feeling--and people get tired of it...and I do too. I'm getting better, but it's a bit of a habit, and everyone knows those are hard to break. :p